Friday, May 08, 2009
sum1: heard u very gl to gals.
me: yah. dun like dem.
sum1: y?
me: dunno
sum1: tink u turn gay liao.
The talk with Edwin was very reflective.
He was relating to me about his choices about band exco. And his problems and possible problems that may arise becos of his certain actions. I tried to convince him. Nt sure if it worked.
But the actual fact was that i was talking to myself.
Choices.
You see, ever since I entered college, lots of things changed. No longer am I confident enough to speak in front of a crowd, confident enough to make decisions, confident that my answers for tutorials are correct, and even during jap lessons I have to rely on people to translate for me, for fear that I interpret wrongly.
I went back to the place where we first met, and we last met. I thought of the many things that they told me about, and reflected on it. The things that have kept me going, the things that will still continue to.
It reminded me of the choice I had to make on that very night. It reminded me of the result of that choice. And I made me feel like history is repeating itself again.
Maybe life is really juz like the doppleliner system. And I juz happened to be a sub.
Opportunity cost. If making a choice would make you lose so much more compared to not making a choice, why not? But again, not making a choice is not a choice.
In my own world,
8:51 PM
