Monday, May 04, 2009
Here I am again. Ready to rant.
Yes. 0.8. tts how much more i need to get an A for bio. It should never have happened. Its the first time I failed to get an A1. Now its a b3. look. look at the marks man. Isn't it disgusting? That's what I got for being over complacent and for not studying at all. wtf. And if u got a problem with me whining about not getting an A fuck off. I dun care if you got a B or C or watever shitty results, cause its none of my business. I don't give a dam. What I know is that I screwed up.
I am totally loss at what I'm supposed to do now. Everyone seems wierd. My laughter's has grown fake. I'm tired of it. Every time I show my feelings people juz say that I'm emoing again. wtf. And that I have mood swings. wtf. Talking to people in the class seems like its getting harder. I dun noe why and what to do next. I juz don't.
Perhaps its my change in attitude I had towards my class. I wanted a nice class. And I got one: one full of gals. I dun generally mean harm, but girls are boring. They won't go the extra mile for ya, they wont make the effort juz to walk to the high school to eat with ya, and they dun give a dam about wat they say. But everything you do and say means a hell lot to them. Or isit that I'm expecting too much?
Perhaps they are some nice ones in my class, but not willing to show their 'niceness' for fear that it would be mistaken as a move to get closer to the guy. I dun noe. And sometimes even guys feel wierd. I dnno. What the hell is wrong? I got the feeling that its me again.
And the best thing is that my class juz don't want to go out toget. Its nt like they are mugging, they juz... And they probably juz settle with the easiest way out. I dun understand. Its nt about laziness, its something wierder. I dunno what isit.
Its like when I leave my class to go with some others I'll feel bad abt psing them and leaving the class bench. But i dn think they feel the same. Thats even weirder. Even in 4D when we aren't so bonded when each of us only bothered about mugging (and I mean pure mugging that produce results), I still feel that I belong to the class. I really don't noe what's wrong with the rest.
And the best thing now is that we have cliques. Wow. esp 2 man cliques. What's going on. 'Let's eat at the canteen toget' has become this mission impossible. Nobody waits for all to be here before starting. And that after eating, everyone will juz leave one by one having excuses like 'i wait for u at the bench', 'i need to do gp', 'i go buy drink' and disappears. Isn't it like juz common to do all these at least to show that you acknowledge the very presence of your classmates, and that you appreciate their company?
They say girls are more refined. More polite. More 'bondable'. More comprimising. Less sensitive to stuff...
But i tink otherwise.
In my own world,
9:14 PM
