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I have like always been a part of a unbonded class, and now, I am leading a can-be-more-bonded class.

Peer appreciations was a total failure. I have never done something, so disgraceful, so epic, so dissapointing in my whole school life. Even that is not as bad.

It's like when I suggested that we are going to do peer appreciation, everyone gave me the "wtf" face or the "you-muz-be-kidding-me" expression when I'm totally serious about it. It is not a laughing matter, yet everyone is using hand phones, laughing at almost everything. The atmosphere is juz not right.

I just can't understand why people aren't saying what they are supposed to say. They know it themselves, but they are not doing it. I just don't freaking understand why. It may really be like wat Sarah said, that we are juz not placing enough trust in each other to be able to openly criticise one another. Or we juz cannot overcome the awkwardness of sitting in the middle of the circle and having people give you comments. And its mostly happening to the girls. Is it me, or is it that they are juz mentally not as strong as us?

Throughout the whole thing, people are like, "I'm hungry", "It's late, let's go home" which is so like dam constructive and nice and like so helping lah. I mean...

I really don't noe what to do next. I'm certainly the only idiot who tries this sort of thing even tho ppl have already told me that it WILL NOT work. Perhaps it's juz my fault for not telling you people before hand and giving you ppl the time to prepare yourself, but shouldn't it be also on you part that you can't adapt and understand the seriousness of the activity itself?

And I don't see why girls need to be so freaking protected by their parents, or as a matter of fact, parents need to be so freaking protective or caring till you need to come and pick them up, and staying back late is such a difficult thing to do. And I even told you that "there was something on" and "pls tell you parents you will be back late". Yet this still happen. Is this a sign of distrust?

And there are juz too many stuff that are making me feel unhappy, and it is juz somthing indescribable. I mean to some people, you may not really have anything to say, but at least ONE OR TWO of the people, you can giv like freaking positive comments rite. Aghh.

And the best thing was that the circle din end. We had to stop half-way cos' of the sercurity guard, but the POINT IS, NOone wanted to continue the circle. Which is so freaking dam pissing. If it is such a lame activity until no1 can stand it, den juz freaking come up wif some other activity lah.

Attendance was pathetic too. I mean, everyone hav church, family dinner or smth on, which is like so qiao, I mean maybe with some other people like weiqi would be better but... At least the guys (except*...) was like quite ok wif it(nt sure abt it), i mean the faired quite ok in the circle.

Should we even continue to do this? I really don't noe. If everyone is juz going to play, and not be willing to share, there's reli no freaking point. Then again, how the eff are you going to make them share? wow. There's like so many unknowns and variables to even calculate the percentage of success.

Dun bother consoleing me. I'm not emo. I'm juz pissed. and being pisssed requires no consolation.

And I really don't noe if this is wat shiing is thinking, cause I am thinking the exact same thing. The closer you get to someone, the more you feel that you are not close to them. And I totally agree about the meeting once every few month kind of friendship. aghh! I don't noe, but i seriously think we are juz like on the same frequency and stuff, but pardon me if I'm wrong.
In my own world,
12:39 AM