Saturday, August 09, 2008
Everyone, except for me, were high. Mei and jieqi are having fun at sixuan's house. lejing and erwina had fun at jieqi's house. my buddy had fun at East Coast. But i'm stuck with lots of stuff. Yeah, ppt for Loi, ace presentations for IHE, reflections and lab work for SMRP. Haiz. Dun noe what am i gonna do leh.
I'm really very down today. Was tinking about what would happen to hama08 once the hosting is over. Are we going to stay bonded. Or are we gonna forget each other and become nothing but strangers? Ju and flor are quiting. That means there's 18 of us left. Leaving out those i'm not close to, I have around 15 left. But we won't meet each other and leaving those out, I'm left with mei. But I'm going JC next year, which means I won't be seeing her again. Haiz.
Regarding our buddies, its another issue. Much as I wish ikeda to stay forever, i dread him. Esp the ipod. He's isolating himself. Although he is much closer to me than any of the others, I really hope that he can be more like himself some time ago. Or am I expecting too much. I also don't noe the rest of hama08 feel abt their buddies. They would obviously prefer their homestay 1s, not the hosted 1s. But again, if they cry on at the airport next sat, wat would it mean.
At least mei and jieqi are ok now. I'm still cmi with sixuan. Its certainly my fault for failing to understand the pt she was driving until today at but she shouldn't hav over reacted. Mei says not to worry but...
And reagarding wako and ikeda, i'm not very sure about the progression. Aya and the rest hav adviced them to reconsider their relationships. But not sure wat will be their final decision.
I was watching gundam seed destiny all over again. I tink I'm feeling the same way athrun is feeling now. I really want to help to bring everyone together, but I would end up being isolated. I can't really do much to get involved. I can't get rid of the wall between us.
Wat if u found out that the person you hate most is your best friend? Wat if u still had to help your best friend who betrayed you?
It's just some thoughts but i'm really puzzled over them. I really hope to get on well with sixuan again. But i guess it will really take some time.
In my own world,
9:24 PM
